When I moved from Victoria to Queensland after high school, I had a going away party. I wasn't going to be returning to Victoria for any length of time for at least three years. Turns out its been pretty much permenant, and looks to be staying that way.
It wasnt a big party, but still only four people showed. I felt like crap.
Im hosting a sales party at my place this coming Saturday. I dont know many people outside of work. But I've invited pretty much everybody I have gotten to know since I started. Even though I've gotten a few yes's, I still can't shake the feeling that everybody is going to forget and nobody will show. Or worse. One very kind soul will show and feel sorry for me.

Next post please...

I have had the WEIRDEST week this week. On Monday I had the biggest urge to randomly stick my hands into their corresponding armpits, bend my knees a bit, so I was kinda hunched, wave my elbows in the air, and kick my legs around. I have no idea what caused this. I only refrained from doing this because I imagined the looks my co-workers would give me, and I didnt want them calling the men in white coats.

Yesterday felt like one huge caffeine rush. So did today when I came to it. Except today I had another random urge. I wanted to wave my arms in the air and bellow 'ROUND the world and home again, THATS the sailors way', while at the same time waltzing like Matilda. I think I'm sleep deprived.

I got this one from Nobuddy's Bizness. Go into your play list and press "shuffle". Then list the first 20 songs that play. Even if it's embarassing. It's lots of fun.

With over 6800 songs, this list represents less than 0.003% of my music collection
1. Caroline - Brooks & Dunn
2. The Long Day Is Over - Norah Jones
3. I Dont Want To Be Alone - Leann Rimes
4. You Move Me - Garth Brooks
5. Whispering - Frank Sinatra
6. something by James Blundell that I haven't titled yet (oops!)
7. You Give Me Love - Faith Hill
8. something by Ricky Van Shelton that I haven't titled yet (my bad)
9. Standing Up - Tina Arena
10. Walk, Don't Run - ??? (from the ultimate history of Rock & Roll)
11. Going Nowhere Slow - Bloodhound Gang
12. On The Other Hand - Travis Tritt
13. Hot Fudge - Robbiw Williams
14. Lola - ??? (its on a mixed CD ok?)
15. Heaven - DJ Sammy
16. Violet - Savage Garden
17. He Didn't Have to Be - Brad Paisley
18. It Was Over - Kevin Bloody Wilson
19. I'm A Beleiver - The Monkeys
20. So Young - The Corrs

Very Eclectic

Why does everything go wrong at once?

My fridge crapped itself last night. And I dont mean a little bitty hiccup. I mean it's lost its life force. I've only had it for three months and one week, on a three month warranty. Makes you want to hurt somebody huh?
But its all on top of a stressful week. After 3 months sleeping on the floor, I have finally purchased a bedroom package (on credit mind you, more financial woes for me). I was told when I ordered it that the bed wasn't currently in stock and had already been ordered, expected in early this week. I heard nothing from them on Monday, so I called. No bed, would most likely be in on Tuesday. So I decided to wait. I get a call Thursday. No bed. Would be in next week.
I was really excited. But all this putting off of the delivery is stressing me out about the credit. Its a GE credit card, with 26% interest. OUCH!
On Tuesday the head of my area handed in this resignation. He has a chance to do work thats closer to his heart, more hands on with animals, and less administrative work and political wrangling. Good on him I say, but its still going to be a big change for us. My direct superviser is worried. He's been through administrative changes before. So we don't know what we're going to get. Is it going to be somebody as laid back as our boss, who's going to let us sit in the tea room for 10 minutes after morning tea without getting on our cases? Or is it going to be somebody who insists we work righ up until 10:30, and we use our breaks to wash our hands and clean up. Cuz, seriously, thats going to take at least 1/4 of our break. More if we all do it at the same sink. And is he going to be 'cracking the whip' on our supervisers to do the same to us. Its stressful all round.
And there have been issues with sick animals too. I keep finding that my charges are unwell. It could be an oddly fluffed coat, or scours, or a decreased food intake. Sick animals are a fact of life at work, but it doesn't make sense that these ones aren't doing so well. They should be fine. Its not my fault, but at the same time its very disconcerting, because I'm half expecting to turn around and find a sick or, God forbid, dead animal. Its difficult to relax when its like that.
I hate being lonely.