Thursday, December 24, 2009

Best wishes to all

So I guess its that time of year again. Time to look back, reflect, take stock, and move on. Kind of like the end of a bad break up.

Looking back
So I had 4 resolutions this year
1) Lose wiehgt - WIN!
2) Be the best I can at my job - win.
3) more sex - fail.
4) have a threesome - fail.
Not really that bad.

Reflecting
2009 was a tough year for me. Aside from the fact that Dad almost died... yeah, that's about all that fucked it up for me. That was a particularly tough time. I count my blessings though. Dad came out of the coma after 2 weeks, made a speedy recovery and is quite well these days. He does have some aspect of brain damage, but it does not show. At all. He is back to work. The only thing is that he has a limp. Probably because he went in for knee reconstruction surgery. Aside from that he has slowed down a bit. He has difficulty getting through a 40 hour work week. And he has moved to a smaller place, because his big place, with big garden, was too much for him.

For me, this really changed my perspective on life. I never wanted kids before that. But when Dad was dying, all I could think was 'he's never had grandkids'. Its taught me that life is short. And you have to make the most of the moment that you have. You can hear it all you want, but until you actually live it, it might not sink in.

The other big aspect of 2009 was the 12 week challenge. Which I absolutely nailed!!! Met some awesome people, had fun, and really pushed my boundaries. And then it ended, and I ate, and put about half of it back on. *sigh* But, oddly enough, I'm not worried. I have a higher respect for my body nowdays. I am in no rush to lose it all either. I am back on track with eating right, and I still love to exercise, so I will lose it in time. I just want to fit back into my post-challenge jeans.

Taking stock
This year has changed me. It was rough, and tough. But I feel like I am a better person because of it. Not only was there a psychological change, but a physical one to match it.

Moving on
Next year I have different resolutions.
1) Maintain healthy lifestyle. This includes losing the last few kilo's, but its more about being fit and healthy, making smart choices, eating right and learning to love my body, just the way it is.
2) Manage finances a bit better. Ideally I'd like to pay off a reasonable sum off the credit card, and cut the limit as I do so. I'm not aiming to pay it off. I don't think that is a reachable goal, but I'd like to get into a smarter way of thinking about money.
3) Dating. Never really gotten into this one, so its a new challenge for me.

My New Years will be quiet. I am going to a dance thing nearby with the guys from my dance class. It finishes early, which is kinda ok with me. I have to work the next day. Boo to that. But I am off tomorrow afternoon, tripping out to the mountains, by myself, for some well deserved peace and quiet. I'll be going to the Jenolan caves on Saturday, and spending the full day out there. I can't afford to go away, but I can't afford not to at the moment either. I am finding myself frustrated and need some space. Need fresh air, need to see the stars. And I need noone around to talk to me endlessly.

See you all in the New Year.

9 comments:

The Mutant said...

You've had one heall of a year, that's for sure. I'm so proud of what you've achieved - you are my inspiration going into the new year.

I wish you nothing but the very best in everything you desire for the coming year and beyond. xox

Obesio said...

Sounds like a triumphant year--and I am rooting for you to have an even better 2010.

Many hugs from across the globe!

Ute said...

Have a happy New Year! 2010 will kick major ass! It better. ;o)

xl said...

Happy 2010. Make it the best year yet.

Fanny said...

It's been a huge year for you, Phish, and you have risen to the challenge. I admire you a lot, sexy.
Wishing you a Happy 2010 and good luck with your resolutions this year.

So does that mean you don't want a 3 way any more?

Cazzie!!! said...

I am so pleased to read about your Dad doing okay. Small steps is the way to progress and down sizing his house and garden was a great idea, then he can handle things more easily.
You taking stock of the year that was is exactly how families do react when a difficult time has been encountered. It sure makes us appreciate life and the basics.
Kudos o you with the 12 week challenge too, you have to be proud of that!
Happy new year... I hope it is a wonderful and safe one for you.

miss diarist said...

You know what? I think they're all very achievable goals!

Happy 2010 Phishy!

Ms Smack said...

You are truly an inspiration Phishy!

And I'm honoured to have spent 2009 with you. Here's to 2010 :)

xx

*~Dani~* said...

I am glad your Dad made it out okay. You are a trooper and a star!

Happy New Year.