One Day to Wallow

I’m so fucking sick of this stage of my life right now. Right now everything is stuck, and shitty. I’m tired and bored and frustrated. I know the future is really looking forward, but right now I’m in several places as low as I can go.

Work sucks. The demotion is really getting to me. I’m beginning to really get pissed off at the big boss who shafted me down there. I requested HR get involved back in December. And my supervisor went to him the same day and requested they didn’t get involved. The new position itself is ok. More hands on animal work and out in the sun all day. No work politics. And I do get along well with my new supervisor. But a demotion is still a demotion.

I am no longer seeing Overflow. After 3 months he has become too busy to get laid. I asked him how long it would be for and he didn’t know. His words were ‘thats the essence of something casual… it can stop as easy as it starts…’ WTF!!! I thought of this guy as a friend. I spent the las three months developing a friendship with this guy. That may start easily, but it sure as hell doesn’t end easily. I don’t really give a damn about the sex ending. I can always get that somewhere else. But ending a friendship because there is no more sex to hold it up, that’s enough to make you develop instant tourettes!

Fucking cunts, the lot of them.

1. I thought you got a new job in a better place? I’m confused… by Princess of the Universe May 1, 2008 at 5:31 am
   

2. WTF with the supervisor advising HR to not do their job!?
   Is the new job with these bastards or are you hip hopping it outta there completely?

   Grrr Phish.. hate the days when you feel like the world is kicking you.
   by kimba May 1, 2008 at 12:01 pm
   
3. I’m with Princess, ‘tasm… wasn’t there a new job in a better place?

   That said - Supervisor sounds like a total dick and why the fuck would HR not look into it if only to see why they’re getting two conflicting requests?

   As to Overflow - WTF?! That is totally shit. I hope that this bone-head move on his part builds up as seriously negative karma for him and gets collected on REALLY soon.

   Hoping that things are looking up soon!
   Hugs

   by MissE May 1, 2008 at 6:47 pm
   
4. Ok. The new job is in a better place, but doesn’t start until July. So until that stage the demotion is still in effect. by bitchtasm May 1, 2008 at 7:55 pm
   

5. It’s not that long.
   And stop poking your friends; very few people really have the stomach for fucking their friends and surviving the ordeal…

   Well, suck it up till July, Phishy.
   by fingers May 1, 2008 at 8:29 pm
   
6. Hang in there, ‘Tasm. As for guys, move on quickly. It’s the only way to survive. by Fanny F May 2, 2008 at 11:12 am
   
7. How can someone be so flippant about something that’s gone on for three months? Is he a robot?

   Hope things get better soon.

   by Julia May 2, 2008 at 12:11 pm
   
8. I’m sorry to read this babe. Yuc Yuc Yuc. On both counts. by sparsely kate May 2, 2008 at 11:40 pm
   
9. At least your on to better and brighter things though.

   And Overflow clearly wasn’t worth your while.

   by Bunny May 3, 2008 at 1:05 pm
   
10. Aw hell I’m sorry to read about this. Mongrels on both sides eh?

    Time to envision where you want to go and work backwards on steps on how to get there, mate.

    Overflow turned into a tosser. Bastard.

    *hug* You’re not alone honey. They’re everywhere.

    by Miss Smack May 3, 2008 at 1:10 pm
    
11. Dang lady. It always sucks when you’re just waiting for things to get better.

    hope it gets better soon

    by Joshua May 3, 2008 at 5:01 pm
    
12. Aw B, I’m sorry. The bad thing about karma is that it takes a while to kick in, but by gosh by golly it will. Hard. by miss diarist May 5, 2008 at 1:23 am
    
13. what an ‘a’ hole — fuck him by unique_stephen May 11, 2008 at 2:06 pm

Snap!

I beleive the correct term is actually ‘SNAP MOTHERFUCKER!!!’ Excuse the language, but it is oh-so-sweet and very well earned.

Straight of the back of yesterday (no I’m not linking, scroll down and read it you lazy git) I got myself a new job! Much better pay (MUCH MUCH better), state of the art facility, fantastic boss, doing more of what I want to be doing.

Two of my references have already said that its the job for me. Green Eyes has already told me he lied for me. They asked if he knew if I had difficulty dealing with any fellow staff members in the past…

I think I owe him chocolates.

1. I think maybe you do!

   Congratulations!

   by Bunny April 23, 2008 at 11:01 pm
   
2. ALRIGHT!!!!!

   I say “Helllllloooooooo Karma!” and chocolates sound very appropriate! :o)

   *MissE does happy dance for the ‘tasm’s wonderful opportunity*

   by MissE April 24, 2008 at 2:47 am
   
3. Snap indeed. That’s great news, good onya. by Fanny Farquhar April 24, 2008 at 10:24 am
   

4. I’m so glad to hear it…

   That’s wonderful, Phish.
   by fingers April 24, 2008 at 11:49 pm
   
5. oh snap! indeed

   glad you got it. it would seem that in about a month i’m have me a new job too

   good times for all of us.

   aging congrats on the job!

   by joshua April 25, 2008 at 6:02 am
   
6. Okay so everyone beat when it came time to holla back SNAP, but no motherfucker has climbed on board with a MOTHERFUCKING HELL YEAH MOTHERFUCKER!

   Congratulations. Oh and if your going to be sending chocolates, I lied for you too, honest I really really did, just like I am right now! Ha ha

   by Kezza April 25, 2008 at 5:10 pm
   
7. Sweet. I should have read this post first. Congrats! by josh April 26, 2008 at 8:53 am
   
8. Fuckin A! Awesome sweetie. Stick it to da man! by steph April 26, 2008 at 6:39 pm
   
9. congrats on the new job!!!!!! go you!!!!!! by Professor April 26, 2008 at 8:29 pm
   

10. Love the grin and the feeling in your guts when you know you are gonna go to a better (paid) place..

    When you outta there Phish??
    

    Good on you lovey

    by kimba April 27, 2008 at 12:55 pm
    
11. yay! What a fantastic stroke of luck! by Julia April 27, 2008 at 1:54 pm
    
12. WELL DONE! I am so happy for you!

    See, good things come to good girls who blog!

    by blonde canadian April 27, 2008 at 10:35 pm

Lose-Lose

I have been demoted at work. My supervisor is a bully and I refuse to take it. And as a result of the infighting I lose.

I’m not really that worried about my new workload. I like the new area where I’ll be working. And its away from the rest of the cunts at work and is cruisier. I even like the guy I’ll be working with, where most others can’t even stand him.

GalPal was gutted. Nobody else stands up to the bully and she cops even more of it than I do. And for the first time I told Green Eyes that my supervisor is a bully, using that word, and telling him what has been going on. It was good to let it all out.

1. Is there nothing can be done about the supervisor? by Bunny April 23, 2008 at 12:00 am
   
2. Awww ‘tasm! That sucks. Why is that the arseholes are so frequently the ones with the power? by MissE April 23, 2008 at 1:51 am
   
3. I’m sorry to hear about the demotion… that sucks. Can a group of you bad together and oust the crappy supervisor? by Professor April 23, 2008 at 3:27 pm
   
4. sorry to hear! hope you are doing well. by y April 24, 2008 at 4:04 pm
   

5. I’m really sorry to hear it…

   That’s awful, Phish.
   by fingers April 24, 2008 at 11:47 pm
   
6. Sorry to hear there are shitty supervisors over there as well. Hopefully the new position will work out better overall. by josh April 26, 2008 at 8:52 am

Suddenly I get it

Back when I stopped blogging I did tell a few (a very few) people that yes, I would definitely still be blogging. A comment was passed that a friend hoped I still blogged Raw. She liked my raw posts. At the time I felt that was a very strange thing to say. But now I get it.

See, a fellow blogger is going through the emotional wringer for being caught out. Bloggers, being a special breed, get to see what goes on in other bloggers brains. Generally. There are some psycho’s out there that getting into their brain is about as much fun as being in that pit in Saw 3 with the rotting pig carcasses. I digressed.

This blogger clearly does not fall into the above category. She is amazing. And she has just written the most raw post I’ve ever read. It had me in tears at one point.

And now I get the appeal of reading a well written raw post. When I started this blog I thought I’d be a humorous blog. With none of that raw vulnerability. And now I’ve changed my mind.

***

I have been talking to SR a bit over the last few days. I had intended to shag him again. Basically I want to go exclusive with Overflow. And SR was going to be a bit of fun before it. Yep. Like a fool I rang and texted him. We arranged a meet. For tonight.

I can hear everyone going ‘oh no!’ Right? Maybe even someone calling me a silly cunt? Yeah, I deserve it.

I texted him this morning to see if he was still available. Cuz, you know, we made this plan five days ago and he’s not that reliable. And while I went back to work and was waiting for a response, I realised that I really wasn’t into it. I just didn’t give a shit if he said no. Matter of fact, the more I thought about it, the more angry I got. Why would I do that to myself? For a piece of ass? I’m so much better than that.

Matter of fact, I resolved that if he did respond yes, I’d fake the whole ‘get my period’.

Maybe even straight up call him an asshat and thinking back to what the did to me, he’d be best if he jumped off the top of the Harbour Bridge. I’ll even pay for him to go on the climb. Fuckwit.

1. 

   Good on you.

   by Bunny April 22, 2008 at 4:18 am
   
2. OK I realize who you are now. Welcome back. I was wondering what happened back there. Good looking new blog! by y April 22, 2008 at 3:50 pm
   
3. good for you girl. by mel April 22, 2008 at 7:11 pm
   
4. HUzzah!

   *A cheering crowd salutes the ‘tasm!*

   Love you babe! Pay for the climb and the anvil he can carry on the way down… just to give it that WB Coyote look. Of course, that ast bit might just be my brain…

   by MissE April 23, 2008 at 1:42 am
   
5. Good for you! Taking names and kickin ass…! by Professor April 23, 2008 at 3:26 pm
   
6. Aw, sweetie. Reliving that stuff is never easy.

   He’ll get his, though. Whilst we’re not around to see it (damnit, nothing I love more than watching an ex get his comeuppance, hi richard), rest assured that he’ll suffer.

   by miss diarist April 27, 2008 at 10:34 pm

Holidays

So my holidays are almost over now. I really don’t want to go back to work tomorrow. But I don’t care either. I know I’ll have to go back eventually. It helps that this is only a 3 day week for me, and it ends with a long weekend and a job interview.

So its kind of a soft intro back to work.

Still, getting up at 6:30 tomorrow is going to suck.

The holidays were pretty damn good. We had a family reunion on the day I got down there. I had arranged lunch with my Aunt the week before hand. And she outdid herself! Everybody was there except for my Mum (who was up country), my Dad (who’s not affiliated with that part of the family any more) and my brother (who had plans already. I got to meet some cousins wives and kids. Funness to be had in general.

I haven’t seen my mum in 18 months. So it was great to catch up with her. The old girl gets paid for 24 hours of the 40 that she works a week. So I gave her a tank of petrol, kicked in for some groceries and took her to lunch. And because we’re addicted to scrabble, we had a game. Which I won. Not that that’s the point for me, I just have a good track record of it on facebook. Her dictionary is crap. So I scoured three bookstores for a scrabble dictionary. Which I left sitting on her table when I left. She got it that night when she finished work.

Back to the city for a few days to see some mates from school and the Matchbox Twenty concert. Which was BRILLIANT. Not as good as Snow Patrol. But so much more chilled out. I was barely aware of my sister sitting next to me. I could have been sitting in the front row or the back row. It didn’t matter. There was just me and the band as far as I was concerned. I grew up with Matchbox Twenty. They have always been my favourite band. So it was one emotional journey for me. High School, uni, making my way in the world and turning into the person I am today. All packed into 2 hours. I have the audio too. Downloaded it (legally, for once) and have been listening to it on repeat for the past few hours. Bliss.

I saw Overflow the day that I got back. Did our thang. In discussion I told him of the job interview happening on Friday in the city. And he said we should go to a certain nightclub after work. And without thinking I said I had to be back because I did have a dentist appointment Friday night. And conversation flowed as usual. I have just one question.

Did Overflow just ask me out?

1. I think you got asked out, B… but I could be wrong. Sorry.

   And YAY for good holidays.

   Fingers crossed for the job interview.

   by MissE April 14, 2008 at 1:41 am
   
2. To answer your question, it seems that way. Is that a bad thing?

   Rob Thomas is a tasty bit of man candy.

   by josh April 14, 2008 at 1:50 pm
   
3. Either that, or he just wants to get you drunk and compliant by unique_stephen April 14, 2008 at 2:43 pm
   
4. The holiday sounds grand and like a good time was had by all! And so cool to spend some quality time with your mum; I’m jealous, but in a good way!

   And yeah, hunny, he sure did ask you out. SO, are you going????

   by Professor April 14, 2008 at 3:25 pm
   
5. Sounds like your holiday was damn fine and yep, you got asked out lol. Enjoy! by jayne13 April 14, 2008 at 7:23 pm
   
6. Hope going back to work is not too painful for you!

   I’m glad you got to see ‘your band’…I have a soft spot for Rob Thomas as well, the big spunkie.

   by sparsely kate April 16, 2008 at 1:41 pm
   
7. Certainly seems that way! by Bunny April 17, 2008 at 12:05 am
   
8. My guess is yes, he did…but in a no-risk way for himself. by blonde canadian April 19, 2008 at 2:08 am
   
9. YES YES YES he most certainly did. by Miss Smack April 19, 2008 at 3:41 pm