The Great Weight Debate

I make no secret of it. I'm a 'larger lady'. A fatty if you will. Back when I did the 'Wanted' post I put my height, but not my weight. I did that deliberately. Not because I didn't want anybody to know, but because I was going to blog about where I'd been, where I am, and where I was going, weight wise.

I am 97kg. About 214 lb for those playing in the States. Two years ago, when I moved down to Sydney, I was about 120kg. About 265 lb. Now, I still have quite a long way to go. But go there I shall. I have little goals to meet along the way. Currently my goal is 95kg. A few weeks ago it was to be double figures. You have no idea how exciting it was to see that goal.

I currently a size 18. Approximately. Sometimes I need to go a size up for jeans that don't accentuate my vadge. Sometimes I need to go down a size for a top that flatters my breasts. I want to be able to consistently be able to buy size 16 pants. I'm pear shaped, so I'll be size 14 on top. That is my ultimate goal.

I love plus sized womens fashions. Now. As much as a few years back there was nothing for plus sized women. Well, really there were, but it was shit. Jeans that sagged, and tops that covered everything. I may as well have dressed as a goddamned nun. They never aimed to accentute anything. They just aimed to hide it all.

Now the current fashions are reflected in the clothes that we can buy. In fact, at Big City Chic, there are regularly sized 6 or 8 chickies going in and asking if they have anything in their size. Nowdays you can get anything to accentuate or hide anything you want. "Those jeans make your arse look great. Got muffin top? No problem, long flowy top. And they accentuate you boobs too!" "You like your shoulders - here have a halter." "You want to do layers? - take the whole store." "You don't like your thighs - this skirt or everything over there will cover that right up." "You're pale or dark skinned - pick your favourite colour. Its like a rainbow in here."

Now I'm loving my figure. I have always had curves, but now they're to DIE for. I have a fantastic personality, and a gorgeous face. I know that I can have pretty much any guy that I set my mind to. Yet some part of me is still held back.

You see, I was always the fat kid. I was always kinda on the outside. So while I get all of this male attention, and I admit I'm flattered by it, I don't really know what to do with it. I flirt. That's me. I flirt like I breathe. But I don't really know how to take it any further. Its something I'll have to overcome.

EDIT
MissE has bought up some other issues I wanted to put in here, but forgot about.

Plus sized bras are freaking disgusting. Less than 4 years ago, I got my first ever black bra. Prior to that I had always had white bras. Except for one beige one. I was really fussy with them, but they were always kinda ugly. I'm talking granny bra ugly. Kudos to undercoverwear for their bras. They are comfortable, supportive and sexy. Kmart has also had a bra range that comes very close to UCW as far comfort, support and sexy go. But with a price tag of less than half. They have other ranges, but they aren't as well fitted.

Last time I bough underwear I bought this range exclusively. There was a large section dedicated to it, but there weren't really much left in the range of complete sets in my size. This was at least two months ago. They ran out of stock and haven't refilled. I emailed Kmart about this. Obviously if that range sold so well, it is quite popular. I haven't heard back

On another note. A while ago I mentioned emailing Whatswhat about their lack of plus size fashions on their site. I did get a reply. They are still managing the site and hope to have something up in spring. Note to all the plus sized ladies - sitting around and bitching about a lack of proper clothing/underwear/shoes IS NOT BLOODY GOOD ENOUGH. Put the word out there. Use your blogs if you have them, email, call. Nothing is going to happen when you're passive.