Thanks for your support everybody. The last couple of days have been hell. I got maggoty drunk on Saturday night. So drunk I forgot to have a shower before I went to bed. Ick. And I had to work the next day. Faark me it was hard to get out of bed. Thusly I didn't have time to shower before work.
Work wasn't so bad. It was only 4 hours and very slow. And when its slow we can do whatever we like. And we have a bed in one of our departments (don't ask). So I got to nap for a bit. I guess I looked quite funny wandering around work, obviously still drunk, with pink sunnies on. I must have smelt about as appealing as a hobo's nutsack by the time the day was over.
I got myself a hair cut on Sunday too. Not just a cut, but a whole new style. I desperately needed a change and something to do. I went from past shoulderblades to neck length, layered. So most of it sits somewhere around my ears. I also dyed it.
I'm angry. Beyond words. Snarky and tired. I can tell some people but not others. I'm so hurt right now. I wanted to keep friends with the girl. That was my primary concern. But now I realise that I can't do that. I have to make ME my primary concern right now. There will be lots of tears. We shared a lot in the past.
I'm listening to angry music now. Early limp bizkit. It helps. There was a stage in my life where that was all I could go to sleep to. I hold to the anger now. It keeps me from sinking.